Gotta Get A Grip

It's official...I've got to get a grip!  Gained weight...gee how odd!?!? *smacks head*  Dining out far too much on the road the past couple of weeks and eating far too many carbs!  Not even hidden ones, flat out consuming french friens and damn dunkin donuts munchkins!  Self sabotage sucks.  I lost almost 40# and now I think I can eat whatever I please?  WTH self?  What are you thinking?!?!?  You clearly do NOT know how to be a grown up, stop trying and follow your eating plan!!!  Got to get a grip.  Step away from the tater tots and the M&Ms you jackass! 


This is a pattern I have had all my life.  Lose a decent amount


 of weight or get close to breaking a self set goal and 

BLAMMO...SELF SABOTAGE!  It really is a messed up thing.

So, this is my way of getting myself to realize this and move 

forward.  No use in beating 

myself up over gaining 8 or so pounds...it will be gone before

 I know it!  Cut the carbs out,

 and deal with the monthly physiological female junk and I

will be smelling the sweetness of 

being right on the heels of another goal! 

I've got my handy dandy little FitBit Zip.  Yes, I did.  I finally

let my classic die and got a cute new lime green zip. Now it's 

time to put that little thing to work and get back on track!

Happy New Year!

Most people look at the end of one year and the beginning of another as a time to reflect upon past and future.  For me, it brings a double whammy...my birthday is the second day of the New Year.  So not only do I have the reflecting of old year/new year, but I also have the joy of turning another year older and taking stock in whatever that might bring.

Good thing for me, is that I don't get all wrapped up in turning another year older.  It's just a number.  I don't feel any older than I did when I was 20 years younger, so bring it on!

I was super close to reaching the 200# even mark by my birthday.  However, one of the not so great things about having a holiday time birthday is it's silly to set a weight loss goal during feasting season.  I didn't make it, and I did not try to kill myself to attain it either.  My family wanted to take me out to a fabulous Cuban restaurant for my birthday, as if I am going to say no to that?!  LET'S GO!!!  I told them no need to get a ice cream birthday cake, as is our tradition...instead we went to a dessert place and each ordered one slice/serving of whatever dessert we wanted.  It was perfect and nothing sitting in the fridge/freezer staring at me waiting or begging for me to pig out on it!

While I may have missed the 200# mark, I did manage to accomplish quite a bit in 2013.

*I have lost my greatest amount to date: 40#

*BMI has gone from 40 down to 33.5 still technically obese, but less than before!  :)

*My clothes are baggy, even ones that I had not been able to wear in years are now hanging loose.

*The V's of my Vneck shirts are substantially lower than they were when I purchased them.

*15.5 inches are gone as well.

I am feeling pretty darn good about this!

Of course have full body photos, which aren't the best, because I still wear my baggy clothes.  No matter what size I have been in my life, super tight clothing just isn't my style.  In the face shot comparison you can REALLY see a difference.  Not too shabby for 44  ;)

Post Turkey Fest

I have earned a second 15,000 step badge on November 24th!  

I seem to have held it together pretty well of Turkey Day. Now to try to make some time to get in some movement!  It's gonna be dicey with the holiday season upon us!  Lots to do and quite a bit of driving too, which means less time to move. Oh well. It should be okay, as long as I keep my food under control.  (only .2 over pre Turkey Day weight)

I'm a Loser, Baby!

Yes, yes I am, and I am so good with that!

Another month and another weigh in at the WLP (weight loss place).  After last month with very minimal/no loss, this month I showed a 6.6# loss.  Go me!  They now seem to think that I can totally drop 8 this next month!  I think that's a bit of 'crazy pants' thinking.  First of all, I am not at the start of this journey, so the weight is not coming off as quickly as it was in the beginning.  Second...Thanksgiving is this month.  I will try to do my best with the carbs, I don't plan on depriving myself, but I am not going to over indulge either.  There will be a tiny sample of mashed potatoes, gravy and stuffing on my plate.

So far the results show, from my "All Time High Score"...

I've gone from a BMI of 40 to 34.  While technically still  'obese', which I have NEVER felt in my life...the silly number  is going down.  

I've lost a total of 38.6 pounds. More weight than I've been  able to drop at one attempt in the past.

I've lost a total of 14.5 inches from my body measurements.      Bought jeans not at a plus size store for the first time in  years.

Last but not least...FITBIT!  Damn that thing, I love it.  I have had things to do here and have not had another 2 hour marathon on the tread since last Saturday.  However, it did allow me to earn this...

My first ever 15,000 step badge!  

What Is Happening?

Yesterday, Friday, I was a full on slug.  

Today apparently, I felt the need to make up for that!  14,076 steps so far...seriously?!  Who am I? 

Chalking it up to knowing I was slipping in Fitbit friends ranking and getting sucked into Cloud Atlas.  

Watching movies on my Nexus 7 while on the tread is the by FAR the best idea I have had in a long time! 

My New Best Friends

It would appear that my treadmill and my Fitbit have become my new best friends.  My initial goal was to get in 5000 steps a day.  A bump up from what I was doing, but not so much that it would kill my new spark.  I began to make goal regularly, passing it in fact most days. Seven out of the past eight days I have got +5000 to under 10,000 steps a day.  Having been so close a few times to getting the fabled 10,000 steps/day for a pretty much sedentary person, I decided to go for it.

Today was the day.  Of course it helps that I have added Fitbit 'friends' through MFP groups.  Before this, I had just 3 and I was typically #2 in the rankings.  After adding and being added by others, my list is now around 24 Fitbit friends, I think.  Needless to say it's quite a kick in the ass to go from #2 to #18 in the rankings!!!  There have been days when I would add extra treadmill time or walk to do errands instead of taking the car just to move up in the ranking!  Right now, I figure that if I can manage to stay around #12, in the middle that would be good.  :)  Let me tell you that for me, this Fitbit friends ranking thing is no joke as far as adding motivation!

I am truly hoping that all this added movement results in a good loss for when I go back to the 'fat farm' for weigh in next week.  I mean it's bad enough that their scale weighs me 3# heavier than I weigh at home...but come on, no loss at all last month?!  That was awful.  Even after July when we had vacation and spent a majority of the time on the road and dining out, I managed to lose 2.9#!

I DID IT!!!  Got in my 10,000 steps today...an hour and 20 on the tread.  Going from mainly under 4000 (there were days I was lucky to get 3000) to now averaging almost 7000/day is crazy.  Crazy...but cool.  Granted, it required me doing another 20 minutes after I had already completed an hour...because of the rankings don't you know!  ;)

To my Fitbit friends...THANK YOU FOR ALL THE ADDED MOTIVATION!!!

A Swift Kick In The Pants

Apparently, just what I needed! 

My last visit with my weight loss place did not go well. Since I have not shown any real progress in the past couple visits, things were going to have to change. Not going in to details, but suffice it to say that she helped me get back to reality. 

While I had lost a good amount, I am no where near the end of this journey. I still have a ways to go before I reach my initial goal. I started tracking my foods again...daily. I also hopped on my treadmill and got to moving! While I am still not doing it everyday as they would like, I am doing it for a longer time than I was before. While I may only be walking 3x a week, instead of the past 20-30 minutes I was doing sporadically...I am now doing 1 hour with various incline. 

Since my last and most recent visit on 10/22, I have lost just about 5 pounds. I am hoping to lose a bit more before my next appointment on 11/20. I track my info on MFP and it shows me that I am finally at the point where I have less left to lose than already lost! Granted, my starting weight on MFP is higher than my starting weight at the weight loss office.

 Still, it's weight that I have lost...regardless.